Moving On

Could i but turn around and leave,
Acknowledge nothing of that past i lived,
Surely I will do so; I will change everything I was,
See a new day dawning, forget all yesterdays,
And start afresh. But no, that cannot be;
No life unfinished has that choice, no shell
Dented by bumps and scrapes could scars deny.
Rather, like a tree [...]

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empress

the way your presence shouts,
commands the world to pay
obeisance to her imperial
majesty,
compels the undivided awe
of years,
trembles the ground,
you walk in conscious beauty,
unconsciously;
you laugh,
and against all protestations of this
soul,
you clamp the shackles
and seal the binding
of my fall.

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sonnet 16

what is beauty? it is the hidden heart,
the secret of the self — the soul within;
the side of man which is the better part:
that glow and warmth unhid by earthly skin.
what then is beauty? not the charming face,
for oft the shell reveals a rusty core;
instead, ’tis what these mortal eyes can’t trace,
for ’tis the heart [...]

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i am

i am.
you cannot undo this soul
that you ignore.
i am.
you cannot unmake my being
with your apathy.
i am.
you can only unlove me
to your regret.
—-
around 1998 (defiance after rejection.. hehe)

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this is my dream

that i would watch the sunsets someday,
not alone in my awe,
but with a soft hand clutching mine;
that i would open my eyes to the sun,
knowing that the day’s promise was mine,
because i have you by my side;
that i would look forward to the future
with a smile that shall speak of my courage,
buoyed by your love.
—–
bare, [...]

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yes

you touch me with invisible tears
that drench me like a cloak,
and force me to slow my steps,
soften my tread,
silence my footfalls.
i do not need to say it,
but your liquid eyes of unfathomable what
bathe me like a consequence.
carefully, then,
carefully, ever carefully,
i shall hold my soul to touch yours…
and you shall not need to ask again
“does he [...]

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dirac ascendant

i see.
yes.
it is now clear
to me.
i have
no fears.
so,
i follow,
this road.
the only one,
the true.
yes.
here.
behold.
the solution:
my equation.
—-
historically, one of the most stoic physicists ever was dirac. i was wondering here how he would introduce his equation to the world if he were to use a verse.

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verdigris

proud was i,
maybe a touch too proud,
that day.
like a sculptor,
presenting a masterpiece
of clay,
there i gave
this artifact of love
made for you.
which, in your hands,
was caught in your power
to undo.
—-
on youthful feelings of being spurned.

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no other reason

there is no other reason
for us to be apart
except that you complain
that i keep my heart.
there is nothing logical
about such trifling thing
except that you define trust
to mean everything.
i must not keep a secret
if i love you really true;
what kind of reasoning is that,
coming from you?
there is a private chamber
that you cannot violate,
you talk of trust, [...]

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The Footprints

it’s been a struggle,
coming back here,
the surf still bears the imprint of your smile,
and the waves remain constant,
like i had never gone.
but the rocks show the wear of years;
i trace my hand upon that long-ago dream
etched with glass,
etched with youth’s elan,
all weathered now,
and i can barely figure out your name.
the salty tang of twilight breeze
fill [...]

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